daINKtellectual writes

They say life is TWO WAY STREET. Well, I'm not really sure who "they" are but I'm not sure if I agree with the shit. I always tell friends how I want to be happy when I grow up. "When I grow up"; This is something kids usually say, but I am still growing. One thing I strive to be in life is passionate. In WHATEVER I do. That's just me. Life is not A GAME. It gets real, REAL FAST! You have to prepare yourself for any and everything; because any and everything can happen. How do you prepare for this? Life. No other way of explaining.

As you can see from the title, this is about to be an EXTREMELY deep post, so get ready! Let's start by discussing Sanaa Lathan . She's an extremely diverse actress in my eyes. She can portray a character who everyone LOVES (Brown Sugar, Love & Basketball), as well as everyone hates (A Family That Preys). That in my eyes is a flexible and awesome actress, off topic but anyway, you get the point. So, in Brown Sugar, Sanaa Lathan plays the PERFECT black woman. Great career, driven, ambitious, beautiful, all a man could ever want in a woman! Yet, she's alone. About to move back to her native town of NYC to be editor of XXL Magazine. She has been in love with her "best friend" Dre (Diggs) for fucking EVER, but admitted she was too scared to attempt anything for sake of her career. Dre describes his fiancee (which Lathan's character painfully witnessed the propasal) as "Brown Sugar". Everything his fiancee seemingly appeared was everything Sidne...

As May 2012 quickly approaches, I can't help to feel as if this is all so surreal. I've always envisioned attending college, but never imagined that I'd graduate. I would constantly daydream about my career. In hindsight, I can see them for the twisted fantasies they were. As I have said in a previous post, I feel as though I lost passion. How do I know this you may ask? Because as I type this, I should be sitting in my Special Topics class for Marketing. Sometimes I feel like such a fuckup. But I'm human. So I guess theoretically, its one and the same. I often get frustrated with myself because I have never felt like I belonged to anything. Always an outcast, never included in the script. Sometimes I think, was it all worth it? I really do want to continue with my studies on the graduate level, but I have to get through this stage first. Ever been on a roller coaster? Well, this feels like that awkward climb up when you look down and around at the world below you; ever...

I feel as though I'm losing my passion. I know, major uh oh moment right? but lately I have found myself questioning my motives. Just about since my Nana was getting more ill before finally going home to be with the Lord. I ask myself, am I doing something because I truly want to, or because it sounds good? She and my mother would always say something along the lines of "if you have to ask something for confirmation, most likely you shouldn't be doing it all all". But pertaining to those bad things you lust for but know its not right in your heart of all hearts. I want to finish school, I REALLY do! That I am passionate about for sure. I want to enroll in the same grad school and program, I just want to see if I can simultaneously enroll in that University's art program as well. As a marketing major, I would like to be able to market my own art as well. I'm definitely going to check it out!

Ever feel like you have too much on your plate at once, and its taking a long time to try and eat it? Right now I feel like I am being challenged to finish a rough ass steak with a time limit of ten minutes. I can barely cut it, so how am I supposed to eat this meal? Yet, I must remember that God gives us nothing we cannot handle. We all have a divin purpose here. I just have to keep my eye focused on him, and every little thing is gonna be alright. *SIDENOTE* Did I mention I DON'T eat steak? :/

If you go to my user profile, you can take a gander at the other blogs I run. I have one about my experiences caring for my Natural Hair, The Everyday Natural , and another about my take on fashion, Confessions of a Semi Fashion Addict . I talked about my hair in another post, so that blogs goes more in depth. That's all you guys! =} -D

Her sophomore album , The Young Lioness , will finally drop this year! For those of you not familiar with this artist, her name is Teedra Moses . Remember the name because you will definitely remember the voice! She has what is in my opinion one of the best artists vocally of our time. Her voice is unique and her range is just AMAZING ! She also has lyrics with relevance, she is a songwriter and contributes on her projects. She released this vid today as a special treat for her fans. The date of her new album release has yet to be announced. Until then... Check her out!